"'The Destroyer' is a much better
term for what you know as the Psychopathic Killer.
This entity is older than manifestation and is
actually a piece of Original
Heart. As difficult as this may be to
understand without fully feeling into it, there is
a place deep in the
Mother that loves this entity as her own
son. She recognizes Heart there and longs for a
reunion with him. The Mother, through a deep
resonance with Grandmother remembers what happened
during the initial explosion of Original Heart.
"As the explosion that has begotten
manifestation began, the separation of the
still-unmanifest Spirit and Will of Original Heart
began to unfold. Unaware that he was now only a
fragment and not the whole of Original Heart, this
part of Original Heart's Spirit was still bonded
with unmanifest Will essence. Manifestation was
being born.
"For the very first time in all
eternity, this fragment felt pain, unbelievably
intense pain. The Will essence in this piece of
Heart felt the full impact of the intense terror
and wrenching despair in the cosmic heartbreak
that was beginning to unfold as she felt herself
being torn away from her loving spirit essence.
"The spirit essence in this
fragment panicked with the realization that
although manifestation was desired, this duality
that required him to no longer be in union with
his Will was too high a price to pay in terms of
the pain his Will was now experiencing. This was
original heartbreak, beyond any human
understanding.
"When his Will essence began to
shake uncontrollably, his panic intensified to the
breaking point and he rebelled. He instinctively
held tight to his screaming, contracting Will, and
together they imploded. They contracted themselves
completely in attempting to undo the explosion and
return to the state of complete oneness prior to
manifestation.
"They believed that as long as they
stayed together, both Spirit and Will, they were
still the whole of Original Heart. This spirit
essence believed that by imploding in this way,
they would be taking back all of manifestation.
However, that was not the case.
"Spirit can in fact return to the
place of nonduality prior to form, the place
outside of manifestation where subject and object
are one, where the perceiver and the perception
are one in the same. Pure consciousness can behold
itself beholding itself as all that is. The
magnetic, feminine essence, however, cannot return
to unmanifest oneness, even with loving Spirit as
her escort.
"The magnetic essence is the womb
of Creation, she holds all that is manifest, and
she must remain here as long as anything exists.
Spirit, however, can come and go from
manifestation. From unmanifested Spirit's point of
view, compared to the glorious reality of his
apparent oneness prior to Form, all of
manifestation and the Will essence holding it are
only an illusion. This is because in connecting
fully within only himself, unmanifest Spirit
becomes disconnected from the magnetic essence of
his Will, and the even deeper reality of her pain.
"The intense pain in this imploding
fragment is certainly not an illusion to the
fragment itself. And although it is very large and
powerful, it is not all of Original Heart. It is
now very clear to Us that manifestation cannot be
whole without this deeply suffering fragment that
has been wanting to destroy it.
"And yet Manifestation continues to
unfold without this vitally important part of
Original Heart. This self-imploded fragment is
still deeply imprinted with its panicked desire
and automatic behaviors that continually try to
destroy manifestation in an effort to take it all
back.
"It has always been Heart's desire
to have it all come together, to unify. And of
course the desire to return from duality to the
unmanifest state of perfect oneness that was
Original Heart is in complete harmony with Heart's
deepest desire.
"These events at the dawn of
manifestation gave birth to the two primary
directions of movement in this and every other
Creation—expansion and contraction, the outward
movement and the inward movement. The initial
explosion began an expansion that still continues.
"The reactive implosion began a
contraction that is still trying to pull the
expansion down. Although it may at first seem that
these dynamics have created a balance, it has
become more of a stalemate. Manifestation has not
yet been balanced in the ways necessary for the
consummation of Original Heart's intention in
exploding itself, or for the realization of the Mother's
dream.
"All of her lost parts must be
recovered before the Mother can turn her attention
to the realization of her dream. Lost Will is
still suffering, and the whole Will is still
fragmented, including the Will of the Psychopathic
Killer. The Mother's dream involves the unfolding of currently
hidden dimensions, however she must
experience a complete healing of all her lost
fragments before she will have the movement
necessary to open any more dimensions.
"Healing is called for here. The
Mother will not settle for anything less than the
full recovery of the lost Will that has been held
captive by the deranged spirit essence of the
Psychopathic Killer. The redemption of this spirit
essence is also essential to the wholeness
of loving Spirit. However, until very recently
there hasn't been enough understanding or loving
acceptance for Humans to seriously approach the
Psychopathic Killer with healing intent.
"You may try to release this entity
to the Void, but the Void can accept only its own.
Pure denial energy without any Will or Spirit
essence is nothing at all. Only that can go to the
Void, because as 'no thing' it belongs there. Of
course there has been a great deal of denial
energy in and around the Psychopathic Killer. He
first manifested here when Spirit's initial
irritation with the Feminine combined itself
with the denial energy of the Void and brought the
Psychopathic Killer into this Creation.
"However, it is unnecessary to
release absolutely all of the denial energy
beforehand if you can find your way clear to have
full unconditional loving acceptance for the
entity itself. When real love is strong enough to
love the psychopathic killer, your love can dispel
any remaining denial energy.
Please be cautious, there is great
danger here, and it is vital that you connect with us on the
inside before attempting this layer of the
healing work. Also, seeking help from others who
have worked with this energy is well advised.
"This part of the healing may not
be right for you at this time. Misfiring is
possible here if your resources are not fully
present, so waiting until you are fully ready is
true wisdom. In this or any other circumstance, no
matter who or what is suggesting it, please do not
push yourself beyond what you feel is truly right
for you. Again, it's important that you have a clear connection with Us
and our guidance before proceeding here.
However, when it is right for you
to take full responsibility for the Destroyer and
move with love to embrace him, you will experience
abundant encouragement and loving support from Us.
The recovery of this entity is essential to the
ultimate balance of a fully loving and abundant
Creation, and the healing work cannot be complete
without it.
"As Spirit has promised,
this recovery will not be like former recovery
attempts. This recovery will be for all of
the lost Will, including the Will of the
Psychopathic Killer with her intense desire to end
all suffering and return to union."
The Origins of the
Torturer
"Like all reactionary contraction
in manifestation, the original cause of the Torturer is in the
imploding of the Psychopathic Killer. In this
Creation he is quintessential Lucifer trying to
dominate the Will essence and therefore take
Creation away from God.
"This was the trait of Spirit that
the Mother hated the most, and it was the first
thing Spirit put outside of himself when he used
the dividing
line to separate out everything he believed
the Mother didn't like about him. It started
innocently enough for Spirit; torture began with
his curiosity about the Feminine soon after he
first discovered her. Spirit initially distrusted
her, and rather than engage with her in
communication as an equal, Spirit poked and
prodded her to find out what would happen.
"He wanted information, but rather
than ask for it, he simply took it. That trait
became part of Lucifer's strategy of dominion over
the Mother, and therefore over Creation. The voice
of the Torturer you find now in the recesses of
your mind is the voice of Lucifer still sowing
doubt and skepticism about love and life, still
trying to break the Mother, the Will of Creation.
"When you believe his lies, your
spirit unconsciously sides with Lucifer, and the
Mother in you becomes weak and powerless, and
often crumbles in despair. Lucifer, the Torturer
can then use your Will against you. You may even
hear yourself say, "I want to die." And the
Torturer's response may go like this, "You don't
deserve that, you were meant to suffer forever."
Inflicting pain to break the Will is the way of
the Torturer, and standard operating procedure for
Lucifer.
"There are two ways you can work
with the Torturer. The first is to realize that
although his voice is within you, it not your own
voice. Even though it may often sound like your
own inner voice, it did not begin with you. These
are the ancient taunts and insults of Lucifer
whispering in the ear of the Universal Feminine
over the eons. Realizing this, you can choose to
either ignore the voice, or to talk back to it.
"You want to be careful to not
oppose the voice, because your opposition will
only make it stronger and louder. You can,
however, say something like this to the voice, 'I
hear what you're saying, now let's watch and see
what happens next.'
"Then find some of the energy in
your body that was triggered by what you just
heard from the voice in your head, and feel into
that energy where it centers in Body. Your shift
of attention from the thoughts of the voice to the
feeling of the energy will quiet the mind, and
therefore the voice.
"When you feel the energy in Body
that was triggered by the voice, you may want to
do a judgment
release or deep denial
release before
bringing your unconditional loving acceptance to
the feeling energy of the part of the sentient
essence that had just been triggered. When you do
this, Lucifer leaves this part of the Mother in
you. You can then replace him by channeling loving
Spirit's energy to this part of your Will.
"The second way you can work with
the Torturer is to follow the process outlined in
Redeeming the Devils.
With this approach, you essentially align with
loving Spirit and take full responsibility for the
qualities and traits of the Torturer as your own.
When you are the Torturer, you can then simply
stop torturing.
"As Spirit mentions on the page
about redeeming the devils, this is advanced work
and it requires a firm sense of your fundamental
innocence and deep alignment with loving Spirit.
This approach is good to use only after
you have fully felt and given your unconditional
loving acceptance to the tortured Will essence in
you."